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huew9foeinewivkalsckw pronounced melissa
21 January 2010 @ 08:19 pm
1

An all-night barbeque. A dance on the courthouse lawn.
The radio aches a little tune that tells the story of what the night
is thinking. It's thinking of love.

It's thinking of stabbing us to death
and leaving our bodies in a dumpster.
That's a nice touch, stains in the night, whiskey and kisses for everyone.

Tonight, by the freeway, a man eating fruit pie with a buckknife
carves the likeness of his lover's face into the motel wall. I like him
and I want to be like him, my hands no longer an afterthought.

2

Someone once told me that explaining is an admission of failure.
I'm sure you remember, I was on the phone with you, sweetheart.

3

History repeats itself. Somebody says this.
History throws its shadow over the beginning, over the desktop,
over the sock drawer with its socks, its hidden letters.
History is a little man in a brown suit
trying to define a room he is outside of.
I know history. There are many names in history

but none of them are ours.

4

He had green eyes,

so I wanted to sleep with him--
green eyes flecked with yellow, dried leaves on the surface of a pool--
You could drown in those eyes, I said.

The fact of his pulse,
the way he pulled his body in, out of shyness or shame or a desire
not to disturb the air around him.
Everyone could see the way his muscles worked,
the way we look like animals,
his skin barely keeping him inside.
I wanted to take him home
and rough him up and get my hands inside him, drive my body into his
like a crash test car.

I wanted to be wanted and he was
very beautiful, kissed with his eyes closed, and only felt good while movie.
You could drown in those eyes, I said,

so it's summer, so it's suicide,
so we're helpless in sleep and struggling at the bottom of the pool.

5

It wasn't until we were well past the middle of it
that we realized
the old dull pain, whose stitched wrists and clammy fingers,
far from being subverted,
had only slipped underneath us, freshly scrubbed.
Mirrors and shop windows returned our faces to us,
replete with the tight lips and the eyes that remained eyes
and not the doorways we had hoped for.
His wounds healed, the skin a bith thicker than before,
scars like train traks on his arms and on his body underneath his shirt.

6

We still groped for each other on the backstairs or in parked cars
as the roads around us
grew glossy with ice and our breath softened the view through a glass
already laced with frost,
but more frequently I was finding myself sleepless, and he was running out of
lullabies.

But damn if there isn't anything sexier
than a slender boy with a handgun,
a fast car, a bottle of pills.

7

What would you like? I'd like my money's worth.
Try explaining a life bundled with episodes of this--
swallowing mud, swallowing glass, the smell of blood
on the first four knuckles.

We pull our boots on with both hands
but we can't punch ourselves awake and all I can do
is stand on the curb and say Sorry
about the blood in your mouth. I wish it was mine.


I couldn't get the boy to kill me, but I wore his jacket for the longest time.

-Richard Siken
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huew9foeinewivkalsckw pronounced melissa
03 January 2010 @ 02:51 am
shirts:





CDs:




  • discovering the waterfront - silverstein CD/DVD set

  • jonas brothers - jonas brothers CD/DVD set or special edition or w/e



Manga lol:




  • FAKE vols 1-3

  • .hack//Legend of the Twilight vols 1-3

  • Gravitation vols 1-10 (except vol 3 is kind of beat up bc my cat got a hold of it)

  • Gravitation novel



tell me if you want anything!!!!!! i also have random stickers somewhere idek

 
 
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huew9foeinewivkalsckw pronounced melissa
28 September 2009 @ 06:17 pm
Poll #1463794 i hate english

pick a topic for my english speech on choices

What are the common pressures we face in today's society? What are the greatest pressures for us?
1(3.1%)
How can we control our fate?
0(0.0%)
What makes us listen or not listen to our conscience?
5(15.6%)
What considerations must we take into account if our decisions directly affect the lives of other human beings? What actions can a group take in order to prevent an individual from doing what he/she believes is right?
1(3.1%)
What is worth fighting for? What compromises are we willing to make?
1(3.1%)
What role does emotion and feeling play in our decision making?
4(12.5%)
Who controls our future? What do we do if our plans work out differently than what we had intended?
0(0.0%)
Does conforming to the beliefs and actions of the majority make a person a "good citizen"?
4(12.5%)
THESE SUCK I WILL SUGGEST SOMETHING IN THE COMMENTS
0(0.0%)
ticky!
3(9.4%)


if you want to suggest something for me, it has to be within these guidelines:

-life pressures
-values
-consequences
-career decisions
-apathy versus action

tyfyt
 
 
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huew9foeinewivkalsckw pronounced melissa
01 September 2009 @ 11:13 pm
CUT.  
FRIENDS CUT.


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huew9foeinewivkalsckw pronounced melissa
17 August 2009 @ 11:59 pm
so i'm planning on singing hallelujah by leonard cohen/jeff buckley/k.d. lang/rufus wainwright at my grandma's 80th birthday party, but i need a recording of it, preferably piano, with no voice in the background. i'd like it to be the rufus wainwright version, and i can give you the audio if someone can filter out the voice from it. i would love you forever ):
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huew9foeinewivkalsckw pronounced melissa

new screenname

lost in hlywd
3(23.1%)
ninetofive pace
6(46.2%)
eleveneleven cst
4(30.8%)
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huew9foeinewivkalsckw pronounced melissa
23 April 2009 @ 06:57 pm
SISKY AND MIKE SPAM POST
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huew9foeinewivkalsckw pronounced melissa
18 April 2009 @ 07:12 pm
so i'm gonna picspam my face okay? okay.

i have a date tomorrow (jfc i haven't had a date in over a year i am freaking out over here HELLO) and i need outfit help. SO.

like what four outfits idek i can"t countCollapse )

oh look here's your poll


which outfit

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0(0.0%)
2
2(6.7%)
3
5(16.7%)
4
23(76.7%)